Nothing like waking up with a full blown panic attack....

Heart POUNDING, racing, sweating, nauseous, enlarged pupils.

First instinct is to check the blood sugars- no issues there, pretty normal

Next, try to talk self into calming down.  Definitely doesn't work.

Then, sit in bathroom, continue to feel heart race.  Check BP- HR in 150s, can't even remember the actual pressure.. 145/something.

Furiously call parents, no answer, cause they're asleep.  Debate calling 911.

Fumble for xanax, did I take a half or a whole?  Don't know.

Call the hubs in London, start crying, make husband worry because he's not here.  Husband and xanax combo starts to calm me down.  "Aftershock" shaking begins.

And almost 2 hours later, I'm awake, admittedly somewhat afraid to go back to sleep.  HR back in the 80s, BP normal.

This is a terrible feeling, but it's passed.

Love my husband.

XOXO,
Ashley

1st "Diabetic" Eye Exam...

came back NORMAL! 

So nice to hear the word "normal" since I don't ever feel normal.

The Dr. even did a nice job of explaining what effect blood sugars have on the eyes and why the yearly exams are important.

Worst part- took FOREVER for my pupils to return to a normal size.  Surely my patients must have noticed, but none of them said anything!

XOXO,

Ashley